How I Got Here
Why I Do This
There’s also a type of power that comes for me when I speak about things that have happened to me, especially things that have harmed me. I get to put aside some of the shame that I feel and claim these experiences, instead of letting them claim me. The fabulous Audre Lorde has this quote that kind of sums this up for me: “When we speak, we are afraid our words will not be heard or welcomed. But when we are silent, we are still afraid. So it is better to speak.” I’m still afraid sometimes, but I’ve been yelling for the past two years.
I know how powerful poetry can be at building community and connecting people, and I have a loud voice. I enjoy yelling. I can’t save anybody (and honestly, if I tried to be the saviour, I’d probably fail), but if even one person hears me talk openly about something bad that happened in my life and doesn’t feel so alone or messed up, that’s the type of community I want, and that’s the reason I’ll keep doing this until I’m too old to yell anymore.